|月夜 · 不回| - by炎志翔

搬家噜~

2011-07-24T12:54:00.002+08:00

摆脱黑暗的生活，迎向彩色的未来。
即将搬家，新部落格装修中。。。^^

意外的幸运签

2011-05-06T15:48:00.005+08:00

如果你也那么幸运，上天给你的人生第二次的机会，你会做出什么改变呢？你有什么想要弄清楚的？你又有什么后悔的事想要弥补？还是你有未完成的心愿？

好好看的戏。虽然剧情没有大起大落，没有错综复杂，但它给却能够感动人，并让人们省思。真心推荐，得空的时候看一看吧。或许它能给你带来些启发，让你的人生更加多姿多彩。

Tinker Bell and the Great Fairy Rescue 2010

2011-05-03T14:22:00.003+08:00

What a great movie. It helped me to release my stress after doing some boring revision for exam. There's no need to explain much, the movie speaks for itself. Watch it and you'll like it!

一个头几个大

2011-04-20T22:49:00.003+08:00

原来这么久没更新了啊…
最近实在是一个头两个大，assignment好像越做越多似的，怎么做都做不完，感觉很想死！
还有，下星期五开始就大考了，什么都还没读！
加上几个星期后就intern了，死Francis什么都不做！
TMD我该怎么办？呃，很烦啊！

没用的人

2011-04-09T21:47:00.002+08:00

没错，就是我…
一个没用的人…
很讨厌这种感觉…
觉得自己很笨…
什么都不会…
什么都帮不上忙…
……
无言…

忙

2011-04-05T02:22:00.003+08:00

有种突然觉得快断气的感觉…
怎么比考试的时候还要忙啊…
天啊，真的快透不过气来了…
救命啊…

Woohoo ~

2011-03-31T16:33:00.003+08:00

Woohoo!!
Finally finish all my midterm exams!!
5 papers, 3 died!!
Relax for few hours!!

And..
Continue my lab reports n assignments..
t(=_=t)"' Damn!!

依然记得你

2011-03-30T01:04:00.004+08:00

时光飞逝，蓦然回首，原来过了这么多年了。屈指一数，应该有八年吧。可一切好像刚刚发生，记忆依然那么清晰，感觉依然那么深刻…

记忆从我们的第一次见面开始，一直到我在MSN最后跟你告别的那次。整整四年的记忆，一点一滴仍在我脑海里，怎么抹也抹不掉…

很想念你羞涩的笑容。只要一听见你的笑声，看见你笑时露出两排整齐的牙齿，所有烦恼皆抛到九霄云外…

很想念你淡淡的香味。它让我和你寸步不离。它似乎有种魔力，深深地把我吸引着，直到现在仍无法忘怀…

很想念你暖暖的体温。当我受尽冷言冷语的折腾后，它是我的避风港。无论发生什么事，它都能为我疗伤…

很想念你紧握的右手。那天，它终于握着我的左手，看完最后一场电影。四周虽然昏暗，但我的心是亮的…

很想念你道别的左手。它挥一挥，让我们离别了两个月。虽然少了两个月的见面，但却多了两个月的想念…

很想念你离去的背影。逐渐走远，逐渐模糊。永远忘不了那一刻，锋利的刀狠狠划过，心在淌血的那一刻…

记得为你掉泪的三天。睡醒时眼角是湿的，喝水时饮料是苦的，吃饭时食物是淡的，想起你时胸口是痛的…

好笑吧，只有我自己在这里演着独角戏。时隔多年，或许你根本就不记得我吧？不过说实在的，我到现在依然记得你。记得你的一点一滴，也记得我们的一点一滴。我曾经很努力地强迫自己忘记这一切，告诉自己全都是一场梦。但，我做不到。八年后的今天，虽然泪已流干，伤口也慢慢愈合，但我还是会说，我好爱你，依然爱你，真的真的好爱你…

Sigh

2011-03-26T12:20:00.005+08:00

Honestly, the biggest challenge during teaching tuition is not memorizing the syllabus but to suppress my anger and to control my patience. I almost lost control and yelled at those brats yesterday! They have totally no sense of respectability, just like the barbarians! OMG I can't stand them anymore. I have no idea of who am I to them actually. They are just too horrible!

Please lah! If you're already weak in your studies just pay attention to listen what the shit I'm trying to tell you but not arguing blindly! Teacher Khor is trying to help you so you should appreciate for that. You think I'm happy to help her to teach you just because of the two pieces of banknote? You may just quit if you don't even feel like learning. I'm ok with it! I could spend more time to teach a person who is eager to learn without having him to pay, rather than the one who is wasting each others' time. I already told you this at the very beginning of your tuition session. If you want, just sit and learn. If you don't want, just don't come again. Please do remember that I'm still an older person who's teaching you so please at least give me some respect. You may ask but you have no right to order as I'm not your servant although you paid me.

Another awesome video from Corey Vidal

2011-03-24T17:19:00.003+08:00

Still remember the 'Star Wars (a cappella)' I posted before? This is another great video 'Friends (a cappella)' from our dear Corey Vidal. Let's enjoy his great work~

发傻

2011-03-23T22:16:00.004+08:00

今天发傻买了两件红内裤…
总共有三件了…
哈哈！

呃…
我也是心血来潮临时想买的…
没有原因…
不迷信…
就是想买罢了…
鲜红色很美，不是吗？:P
不过…
回到家…
才突然觉得自己很疯狂… = ="'

先发张红内裤美男照…
等我减肥成功后再发我自己的！Muahahaha~

I feel bad

2011-03-18T22:17:00.003+08:00

There are many things that could easily irritate me today.
Even those are just some "very very very" trivial stuff.
Like..
...
...
NO IDEA!! I couldn't think of any examples now..
I don't know why but there are so many WTF's [appear/appeared/is appearing] in my mind..
I'm so damn fucking annoyed.. What happened to me?!
Grr...

看旧戏来也~~

2011-03-17T10:00:00.003+08:00

读书读得无聊了，来看看一些旧戏…
[仙剑奇侠传三]不错看~

遗漏掉的好电影

2011-03-12T18:48:00.004+08:00

终于看完了[ゲゲゲの鬼太郎I] & [ゲゲゲの鬼太郎II]。
以前想过要看，但是漏掉了…
然后就忘记了…
今天没补习，在PPS列表找戏看的时候看到了，
想起来了，就看了。
真的不错看…

观后感：搞笑、感动之余，也揭开了人心丑陋与脆弱的一面。人类啊… 反省反省吧… 不然就连恶魔都不如了。

再一次小小装修

2011-03-12T02:55:00.003+08:00

这张图画原来维持了这么久啊…
突然灵感来了，所以就换了啦…

无可否认地，我的灵感每次都是月中旬来的… 呵呵…

霉到。。。

2011-03-11T23:01:00.004+08:00

霉一：

事件：跌沟渠
原本的目的：去银行
时间：2011年3月4日 4PM 滂沱大雨
地点：Jalan Genting Klang
其他损失：RM54.00医药费
教训：不要以为那是普通积水，其实是个大坑
感想：TMD！

霉二：
事件：困在电梯里
原本的目的：补习
时间：2011年3月6日 2.20-3.00PM 晴
地点：PV12
其他损失：吓坏了，一整天惊魂不定
教训：不要以为刚刚有人从里面出来的电梯就是好的
感想：幹！

终于，我又回到了我这小小的世界

2011-02-16T12:50:00.003+08:00

这是一个我能够暂时卸下面具的地方，我的家……
没有光鲜亮丽，没有色彩缤纷……
只能看见真实的我，
小声地，轻轻地诉说一些自己的故事。

转眼，半年了。
在外头兜兜转转，跌跌撞撞半年了。
我又回到了这个家，因为很累了。

踏进家门，把面具拿下来。
擦一擦泪，抹一抹汗……
洗一洗脸，照一照镜子……
还是原来的那个我吗？

没错，还是我……
只是经历了一些事情，多了几道疤痕……
有经过鬼门关，留下打针吊点滴的痕迹
教会了我想做什么就要趁早……
看见人类的生命是多么脆弱……
也有被人狠狠地甩了一巴掌留下的痕迹
教会了我这个世界是现实的……
因对某些人而言钱就是一切……
不管你是谁，至亲也不例外……

有些疤痕能够复原
因为遇到了对的医生，用了对的药。
而有些疤痕，却造成了永久的伤害……
感谢治疗我的人，感谢伤害我的人
因为你们让我的眼睛打开，比以前更明亮。

最后万分感谢……
感谢您，因为我还感觉得到我的呼吸……
感谢您，因为您为我治疗了很多伤口……
感谢您，因为您让我明白真正的道理……
感谢您，因为您让我又再次地长大了……
感谢您，因为您让我的视觉更为辽阔……
感谢您，因为您让我学会感谢…
学会接受… 学会包容… 学会放下…

我心中永远的传奇 --- 宫崎骏

2010-08-31T00:11:00.002+08:00

每次看了宫崎骏的动画，心里是如此百感交集。说不上开心，也称不上悲伤。怎么说呢，就…… 感动吧。他的每一个动画都能给人们启发，让人们省思。无论是人与人之间的友情、亲情、爱情，还是大自然与我们之间密切的关系，宫崎骏的动画都能非常贴切地呈现，非常真实地带出所要表达的信息。就像我刚看完的“萤火虫之墓”，它没有迪斯尼动画般的华丽，却有着其他动画都比不上的真实和感动，同时也让我反省，平日我的态度。
（抱歉，我的词汇很少，无法用更好的字眼来表达哪一种感受。）

What should I do

2010-08-23T19:23:00.003+08:00

It has been a VERY long time since the last time I wrote something here...
Almost forget that I have a blog.. = ="'

My life lately is just a MESS..
I feel that I'm getting weaker and weaker..
I'm not able to do anything..
Include things that I have to do..
And things that I wish to do..

Why...

Am I fated to be a loser?

另一部好电影 ------ 和声

2010-07-14T15:30:00.003+08:00

看过那么多部韩国电影，不错的都在这里介绍过了。
说得上感动的，没几个。
让我眼眶泛红鼻酸酸的，五根手指数得完。
但是，让我哭了好几次的电影，这是第一部。
由金允珍主演的“和声” 是一部非常棒的电影。
希望你们都能看一看，并且用心体会电影所带出的讯息。
好好地哭一次，压力少了，心情真的好很多。

大力推荐哦！！！！

Thanks guys!

2010-07-01T19:44:00.003+08:00

First of all, a big THANK YOU to all my friends for giving me a very nice birthday this year. Sorry for not stating out all your names (if not there will be a very long post) But.. I will REMEMBER and APPRECIATE what had you all done for my birthday this year!
p/s: including the nando's chkn, n the cake with (garlic+chili+vinegar+wasabi+...) and etc xD

鱼头！呵呵~

2010-06-26T21:53:00.003+08:00

今天参加了一个冗长课程，从早上到傍晚，累死了。不过那课程还挺有趣的，也学到了一些东西。好像：Stop BANGAUING! 意思是，不要再找借口了！（呃…一整天只记得这句，好像有点失败。哈哈。）

然后，刚才姨丈请我们全家吃大餐，提早帮我和我妹庆生。真的很久很久很久没吃得那么过瘾了！两盘鱼，蚌壳，鸡肉，清炒蔬菜。太棒了！我还是人生第一次吃过那么大一个鱼头，真的…不知道用什么字眼来形容。太赞了！现在回想起来还回味无穷呢！其实还挺感谢姨丈一家人的，因为自小他们都很疼我。刚才还聊了一些小时候发生的趣事，但我一点也不记得了。

今天过得还不错。:)

好歌介绍 -- 宽恕

2010-06-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

最近，听一次就听到心坎里的歌真的很少。这是近期个人觉得非常不错的一首歌，希望你们也可以听听看。

神木与瞳 - 宽恕

Motivation, any?

2010-06-20T17:17:00.002+08:00

Shit, I lost all my interests in studies. Not only that, I abandoned my favorite online game few days ago too, suddenly. Just... suddenly get very bored of it. Everyday PPS, PPS and PPS for whole day.. Some motivation, anyone?

复杂的关系=刺激?

2010-06-12T19:11:00.005+08:00

最近看了两套韩国电影。真巧，两套电影的剧情里，主角们的关系都很复杂。不伦恋，变性… 这些都是敏感课题，但电影诠释得很好。个人很欣赏韩国电影，因为他们往往都能把细腻的感情描绘得很生动，很真实。

狼的诱惑。述说着一个女生周旋于两个男人之间的故事。电影里情侣之间的信任与猜疑，姐弟之间的暧昧关系，都描绘得很细腻。这是套很不错的电影，值得一看！
爸爸喜欢女人。述说着一个变性人重新遇见了自己亲生儿子的故事。感情的诠释毋庸置疑，但个人觉得美中不足的，是角色的说服力。只能说女主角真的很女人，完全感觉不出任何变性后的痕迹。有时看得久了，会误以为只是妈妈与儿子的重逢，必须稍微提醒自己她是个变性人。无论如何，还是很不错！

我想，我还是幸福的

2010-06-09T15:52:00.003+08:00

前言：请不要唾弃我，谢谢。
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你们不会了解我的立场，我的想法，我的苦衷，就像白天永远无法体会黑夜的寂寞。我的生活和你们的不一样。我多了几个包袱，多了几分顾虑，而因此少了几分自由，少了一些机会……能让我做我想要的事。活在当下无需顾虑太多，这道理一点儿也没错，但是我的人生不是在当下以后就结束，我的包袱、忧虑，不是在当下以后就可以卸下。我还有很长很蜿蜒的路要走，很宽很湍急的河要跨，很大很困难的荆棘林要穿越。

回想一下，我的童年到底有什么？可笑，我还真一点儿也回忆不起来。没有好吃的零食，没有好喝的汽水，没有好玩的电玩，没有超酷的机械人，没有漂亮的衣服，没有到过好玩的地方，没有笑声，没有赞美，没有被牵过手，没被摸过头，没有被拥抱过，什么都没有。这些不都是一个小朋友想要的吗？别人都有，为什么就只有我除外？可能你们丝毫不屑这些东西，微不足道的东西。可是，有些人一直都渴望这些，努力追求这些，而到最后一个也没有。其实，我是多么地贪心。

渐渐长大了，开始发觉我什么都不会，就因为我什么都没试过。你们聊电玩，聊旅游，聊食物，聊衣着，聊运动，甚至聊课业，我都只有听的份儿。偶尔想试着加入你们的话题，却失败了。有时是我自己打退堂鼓，有时是被你们狠狠地拒绝了。我不多话，不是因为我不爱说话，而是因为我不知道该说些什么，因为我什么不会。就连最基本的电影院，谷中城，我都没去过，何来的话题？其实，我是多么的愚笨。

常常被拿来和别人比较，而我都会是差劲的那一个。无论哪一个方面，每一个方面，任何一个方面，我都比不上任何一个人。我努力了，但现实告诉我，我是不行的。老实说我很不喜欢被你们拿来比较。难道我有这么差吗？是，我承认我很多东西都不会。但是，我会的你们未必会！其实，我的自尊心是被你们的践踏而变强的。

不过，用另一个角度想，我可算是比上不足比下有余了。真正可怜的，是那些没饭好吃，没地方好睡的贫民。连基本生活需求都缺乏的他们，根本不需要谈什么好吃好住好玩的。还有那些穷得只剩钱的，除了钞票还有什么？我该感谢上天待我不错，赐我三餐温饱，赐我手脚健全，赐我机会让我遇见一些真正的朋友。

我想，我还是幸福的。

Unexpected!

2010-05-29T11:57:00.004+08:00

Result is OUT few days ago and it is OUT OF MY EXPECTATION!! I got 2.6 for this sem!! That's unbelievable!! I guess UTAR dragged the passing marks to very low, especially for certain subjects like Analogue Electronics and Signals. FYI, that's my first time to submit "ALMOST BLANK" answer sheets during the exam. Hmm~ then I guess my other course mates will get a MUCH better result than mine.

Tomorrow will be a fresh start for the second year of my course. Hopefully everything will be better.

I miss them

2010-05-25T19:34:00.002+08:00

Went to the "Chatz Room" for a gathering with my 3K friends yesterday. Time flies, it has already been 5 years (2005). However, we are still as close as before. Actually before attending the gathering I was worrying that we would become very quiet, shy and nothing to talk.. BUT in fact, it's totally opposite from what I thought. We had a very very good time there. Actually there were some opportunities to meet them before, but due to some reason I couldn't manage to attend their gathering, which is quite disappointing.

I miss them. I miss the happy days. I miss the sweet faces. I miss our silly dialogues. I miss our silly actions. I miss everything that happened with them. They are irreplaceable, never ever.

P/S: I hate my uni life.

稍纵即逝的流星，突然多出的空洞

2010-05-17T00:01:00.005+08:00

忙碌日子突然多了个空洞，突然不知道该如何填满。这不是我一直希望的空洞吗？啧，人很矛盾。填得满满满时，满脑子想着如何找个空隙来透透气。现在空出来了，却多了份空虚。很不习惯，像是一直要找些东西来做，却不知道能做什么。今天过得特别无聊，好像迷迷糊糊又过了一天。不过其实想想也不错，反正之后应该会很忙，因为有两项科目应该过不了关，需要重修。

可惜呀，刚刚目送一颗流星划过了夜空，离开了眼际。这不是煽情，只是以文字稍微修饰事实。炽热的流星燃亮了灰暗的生活，丰富了沉闷的日子。有时满腹牢骚，抬头对它说说话时，它都能够听得见，也能体会。这已经远远超过那些，只让人许愿，却从来不会实现的流星，好上千倍万倍。然而，流星终究是流星。来得偶然去得也快。应该是找到了对的目的地吧，希望那里的人也会因为那颗流星而幸福。现在偶尔抬头看看天空，虽然没了流星，但是多了好几颗不停闪烁的星星，像是它留下的痕迹，是美丽的回忆，是永恒的祝福。

衷心祈祷，愿它幸福，珍重，再见。

不久后，我的人生即将迎接新的挑战，一切都会是新的开始。我想，无论日子再怎么艰苦，我还是会好好地过…

Nothing special

2010-05-11T00:14:00.002+08:00

Just to write something to show that I'M STILL ALIVE. Busy with my exams + a new online game lately - Monster Forest. Quite a nice game huh. There are many things you can do in the game. Lazy to explain so many lol.. If anyone of you are interested can visit the Monster Forest Homepage for further information.

By the way, I think I will have to repeat my Analogue Electronics, which is a stupid subject that tortures me the most. I got very low coursework marks for it and I can't do at all in the final exam! That's the first time where my answer sheets are almost blank! [EPIC FAIL] I estimated roughly the marks I may get, and I found a high possibility to fail the subject. Shit! Gotta spend RM700+ for it..

Titin

2010-05-03T15:08:00.004+08:00

Just found out the longest word in the world - the chemical name for Titin. Titin is the largest protein that has been discovered by the scientists so far. It's full chemical name has 189819 letters!! However, it is not included in the dictionary. (As you know, chemical names are usually not found in the dictionary) Titin is a protein that in humans that is encoded by the TTN gene. It is important in the contraction of striated muscle tissues. Titin connects the Z line to the M line in the sarcomere. The protein limits the range of motion of the sarcomere in tension, thus contributing to the passive stiffness of muscle. Variations in the sequence of titin between different types of muscle (e.g. cardiac or skeletal) has been correlated with differences in the mechanical properties of the muscles. It is also the largest known single polypeptide. The gene for titin also contains the largest number of introns (363) discovered in any single gene.
[Click here to see the full chemical name of Titin]

Final exam period

2010-04-30T22:38:00.002+08:00

Currently having final exam, will not be update that often during these 2 weeks. By the way, today's the first paper - Management Principles and I screwed up.. = ="' Another 5 subjects to go, hwaiting!

My timetable for Y2S1

2010-04-27T15:15:00.003+08:00

Eh em~ This is my timetable for next semester. I purposely make my timetable loose a bit so that I won't suffer like how I am, for this semester. Before I was thinking that squeezing everything together will be better, as I have more time to relax. However, I realized that I was completely WRONG after I go through this semester. The arrangement of the timetable would kill me, seriously. I never consider about the distance of the venue where lecture is held, the transportation etc. I was rushing here and there like hell, especially for Tuesday and Thursday. Not only that, I have classes from 8am till 5pm when Tuesday, with only half and hour break in between! That's why, my life for this semester is like hell.

Hmm~ anyway it's ok, at least I've learnt a lesson. I guess this semester should be better.

UP

2010-04-26T01:45:00.004+08:00

Thanks to Harry, I just finished an animation that I had missed out - UP. I have no idea why I did not know of the animation before, since it's a very popular animation. Despite the beautiful graphics and interesting storyline, what would be the most important is, the message that the movie is trying to give us. Watch it if you haven't, or else you'll regret :D ..

Corey Vidal

2010-04-25T10:56:00.006+08:00

Another EPIC I found from the Youtube - Corey Vidal. He introduced himself on Facebook by saying that: "Hello there. My name is Corey. I am literate, a ninja, and have opposable thumbs. I blow bubbles in your milk when you're not looking." Ha, he's cute. Have a look at his video and you'll be amazed by his awesomeness...

'Star Wars (John Williams Is The Man)' medley -
Corey Vidal and Moosebutter - a cappella tribute

Click the links below to know more about him:
[Corey's Homepage] [Corey's Facebook]

Perpetuum Jazzile

2010-04-24T19:45:00.004+08:00

I just found out another great vocal performers group from the Youtube - Perpetuum Jazzile. Hope you'll like them!

Perpetuum Jazzile is a Slovenian choir that performs jazz and popular music. It was founded as Gaudeamus Chamber Choir in 1983 by Marko Tiran. In 2001, Tiran passed the art directorship of the choir to Tomaž Kozlevčar, the renowned music producer, arranger and vocalist.

The choir consists of both female and male singers. They are occasionally augmented by jazz instrumentalists from the RTV Slovenia Big Band and Slovenian pop stars such as Alenka Godec, 6Pack Čukur, Alya, Oto Pestner, Jan Plestenjak, Nuša Derenda and others.

The choir uses a wide spectrum of jazz styles, performing complex and dense harmonies, characteristic of close harmony music. They were originally inspired by Gene Puerling, The Singers Unlimited, and The Swingle Singers. They perform bossa nova and swing music, as well as funk, gospel and pop, either a cappella with vocal percussionist Sašo Vrabič aka. Multitask, or with a jazz trio.(adapted from Wikipedia)

Perpetuum Jazzile - Africa

How to train your dragon

2010-04-24T00:45:00.005+08:00

Whew.. Just finished the movie "How to Train Your Dragon". One word, AWESOME! I enjoyed the movie very much.
(Yea yea i know it's a bit late to talk about this movie~)

The graphics, storyline, everything.. had amazed me. And what attracted me the most was the Toothless!! I wish I could own him as a pet. He's too cute ><"'

However, somehow I found that it has some similarities with the Avatar. (Hopefully I'm not wrong huh?) For example, the way that the main characters interact - Hiccup vs Toothless / Jake Sully vs Neytiri.. They learned the enemy's lifestyle.. The built a strong relationship with the enemy.. Both of their nation finally became friends after a disaster.. And they ride dragons :D ~

Anyway, they are great movies! Err.. what else.. I'm not good at giving comment on movies xD ~ So I'm ending this post by "I love Toothless!!"

Last day of my Y1S3

2010-04-23T15:48:00.005+08:00

Today's my last day of Y1S3. After submitted my Signals assignment in the afternoon, I decided to go back home even though I really do not wish to see her face. Seriously, I feel like vomiting every time when I see her retarded face. *PUKE* However, a long and good sleep is what I need now and I don't think I could sleep in Uni. So, if I'm at home I could just sleep and will not see her stupid face :) ~

On the way back from Uni, I saw an extremely beautiful blue bird which I never saw it before. At the moment I was like "WOW.." and stunned at the road side for few secs. It has blue feather with yellow and black stripes, and a long maroon beak. But the sad thing is, when I was trying to quietly get near to the tree where it stood on, it flew away! *SIGH* I just wanna have a clearer look on it ehh ~

Before I write this post, I spent about 40mins to search on the internet about some information of the bird BUT FAILED. I can't found the exactly same bird that I saw. *another SIGH* At most what I found were the BEE-EATER and the KINGFISHER, which are the closest to what I saw. I wonder what kind of bird it is huh?

-++ Rare bird could bring me good luck, perhaps? ++-

突然之间

2010-04-21T12:38:00.004+08:00

突然之间…

听见仿佛玻璃被撞裂的声音。声音不大，却明显刺耳。摸一下眼角发现湿湿的，啧… 怎么会这样？不是早已经干了吗？胸口随着传来一阵剧痛。伸出按在胸口前的右手，发现原来心在淌血… 泪水一串串划过了脸颊，血液一滴滴染红了衣服，不堪的回忆也一幕幕重现。

糟糕… 好不容易把那回忆深锁在最深处，却又让它溜出来捅了我一下下。接着，懊悔、愧疚、惋惜、遗憾等等，也跑了出来凑热闹。可见这么久以来，我还是不能释怀…

那次得到的教训代价可大呀！我学会了，并记住了，到现在都没在重复犯同样的错误。但是我却失去了一样很珍贵的东西，再也无法挽回。大概是天意弄人吧，在我处于最黑暗的时候，上天让我得到了一颗钻石，霎时绽放耀眼光芒，照亮了我的人生。但是，他却只让我拥有燃放一蓬烟火的时间。曾经多么绚烂美丽，最后却化为灰烬，只剩下无尽的悔恨。

这只是突如其来，短短几秒钟的感觉。真的，就那几秒，短暂却异常疼痛的几秒…
这篇是我刚才在偶然的情况下，在面子书上不小心看见了某样东西而写的… 也顺便放一篇在这里吧…

The VOCA PEOPLE

2010-04-19T18:48:00.005+08:00

From now on I'm gonna introduce a lot of great stuff here, which is still quite 'unpopular' around us. To my friends, do support them if you like them too =).. Today I'm introducing "The Voca People". Their voices attract me deeply when the first time I saw their performance on Youtube.

The Voca People are friendly aliens from the planet Voca, somewhere behind the sun.. where all communication is made by music and vocal expressions. The Voca people believe that life is music and music is life. They visit planet Earth and they have a lot to sing about. (adapted from The Voca People's HOMEPAGE).

Actually based in Israel, The Voca People group consists of five men and three women with amazing voices. They use those voices in a phenomenal acappella method, creating not just music but vocals that imitate the sounds of drums and other musical instruments, creating an awesome blended sound in a humorous and entertaining way. In other words, they put on a great show for their very appreciative audiences. (adapted from squidoo.com).

Click here to visit their Facebook page.

Pon and Zi

2010-04-18T12:46:00.005+08:00

I'm so in love with Pon and Zi lately.. OMG they are way too cute! Although it is simple, only an image with few words as dialogue for every episode BUT it can easily melt everyone's heart.. Of course, it melts my heart too :D

Pon and Zi were first drawn by Jeff Thomas (aka Azuzephre) in the last few months of 2004. Originally gray and nameless, Pon and Zi soon had names and a bit more color. Pon is the yellow, zealous instigator, and Zi is Pon's blue, sometimes apathetic counterpart. Neither is assigned a gender so that each reader can decide for themselves which character they identify with more..(adapted from Facebook Pon and Zi fan page)

Whoever interested may CLICK HERE to go visit their fan site. Have a look at the gallery and for sure, you'll be touched. You may also join their Official Facebook Page.

This is one of my favourite :P ~ Go to the fan site for more!

Another small renovation

2010-04-16T02:27:00.004+08:00

Just changed a new header for my blog.
Bid farewell to my old header..
Coincidentally, all my headers are being created and replaced in the middle of the month..
LOL.. seems like my "art cells" are only active within this period huh..

打油诗一首

2010-04-05T11:53:00.002+08:00

突然有感而发,一时兴起..
在此献上打油诗一首
愿与任何对号入座者共勉之~

虽然大家是朋友_______我没欠你钱对吧？_______我对你一忍再忍_______现在到底要我怎样
基本礼貌仍要有_______为何对我凶巴巴？_______你却越来越过分_______我做什么也被你讲
我不是你家的狗_______告诉我原因好吗？_______害我忍得很头疼_______我讲什么也被你讲
不能让你挥挥手_______是我砍了你老母，_______被你不停地折腾_______我已经很你顶不顺
唤则来，呼则走_______还是宰了你老爸？_______恐怕有天我会疯_______顶不顺你的死猫样!

顺便附上一首曾经红极一时的诗,我个人非常喜欢的..
多么诗情画意,形容得多么生动,经典得深入民心..一个字, 赞!
附注: 请用四川腔朗读, 效果更佳..

八月中秋山林凉风吹大地草枝摆
甘霖老母赶羚羊来年羊毛超级买
草枝摆阿赶羚羊赶羚羊阿草枝摆
庭院织芭为君开都兰山晓金橘摆
天摇地动舟渡岚呜呼甘霖老迹埋
金橘摆阿老迹埋老迹埋阿金橘摆

Meaningful day

2010-04-04T15:08:00.005+08:00

Just came back from Chee How's church.. Today's weather is hot like hell ar..
I've done something very meaningful today..
which is -- BLOOD DONATION!!
Haha.. maybe for some of you, this is just a common thing..
But this is my first time to do so..
And i feel that it is a very meaningful activity..
I thought that it's very scary before but in fact it's not!
No pain, no uneasy felling, nothing!
Guess I gotta donate more in the future.. xD..
The first photo is during preparation of "sucking blood"..
And the second one is during "sucking blood".. Hahaha...
To whoever who see this post, please donate blood if u can..
Cuz (who knows..) maybe 1 day you might need it / need someone else to donate to you..

BUSY week

2010-04-03T09:12:00.003+08:00

Those assignments and reports can't be delayed anymore..
Gotta finish before due or else I'm gonna fail the subject >< ..
Anyway I guess I've failed my Signal test this wednesday..
I've studied for so long time..
But the exam came out WEIRD questions that I never see b4!
Haiz.. *sadded*
Btw I just learned how to use MultiSim lately in order to complete my Analogue lab2 report..
That's a cool program, as everything can be done 'virtually' by the computer.
Currently rushing Signal reports.
There are still a lot of things need to finish in this 2 weeks!
Maths exam.. Analogue assignment.. Digital assignment..
Signal assignments.. Analogue lab 3.. Digital lab report.. etc etc.
And what worsen my headache is, FINAL EXAM IS NEAR TOO!
Guess my friend was right..
UTAR can be defined as:
- Universiti Tak Ada Rehat
- Unlimited Tests Assignments Reports
I'm so damn exhausted!!!

Still NOT in the mood

2010-03-28T12:36:00.006+08:00

Still not in the mood of doing anything..
Not even listen to what lecturers mumbling.. ($#^@$^%^$#%@~~?)
Not even doing my lab reports that are going to due.. (signal, digital!)
Not even wish to touch my assignments.. (signal, digital, analogue!)
Not even touch my lecture notes.. (I do not need a hypnotist/hypnotiser whatever)
Not even think of those formulas.. (..... Can't remember any of them.)
Not even feel like entertaining those FAKERS.. (DON'T BE SO FAKE LIAO LA PLS!)
Not even feel like quarreling with [THE] BITCH.. (YOUR MOUTH STINKS!)
Not even touch my guitar.. (How the hell am I going to improve then??)
And not even update my blog.. (It's been a week since the last update.)
Just keep eat, PPS and sleep, eat, PPS and sleep...
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Suddenly feel that "HE" is so GODDAMN BLOODY HELL FUCKING irritating lately..
I think only enduring all the way is not a good idea..
Have to do something then..
But what should I do?
A big big buku lima for him?
Chop him into half?
Slice him into thousand pieces?
Or mince him till...? * evil grinnnns~ *
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Seriously, I like to doodle every table that I use before [as a proof? xD]
This is not a good attitude so.. small kids please don't learn k? =)
I do not know why but I just like to scribble scribble n scribble whatever that comes into my mind. So when you see any doodled-table, it might be the 1 that I used before. Haha..
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A presentation on tuesday, part of the Pendidikan Moral assignment.
It's a drama, about family issues caused by Facebook.
Thanks and BRAVO to all my groupmates, you all did it very well!
Especially ma(aHui) n Nicole(aBun).. sacrifice a lot for our drama..
This is my pa n ma..

Haiz.. I can't get the chance to take a photo with my gf - Nicole(aBun)..
He's so damn gorgeous on that day.. Even me also got a big shock xD..
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Yesterday night aShin caught the flu n today got sorethroat..
Hopefully he can recover soon ler..
Now still got many reports, exams and assignments are still waiting for us..
Don't tumbang 1st.. xD..

无聊的周末

2010-03-21T20:16:00.003+08:00

这两天一直自我埋葬在PPS里面..
偷心大圣PS男,秋香怒点唐伯虎,康熙来了..
大兵小将,学校霸王花(韩),72家租客,花田囍事2010..
之前错过的电影都追回来了..
一直看看看,看到我八只眼睛..
没心情动书本..没心情睡觉..
没心情玩线上游戏..
没心情上面子书鸡婆人家的东西..
好无聊阿~

变胖了

2010-03-20T21:07:00.002+08:00

完蛋咯,连我外婆的老花眼都看得出我胖了很多..
真的得节制一下了..

这几天就是一直睡睡睡睡睡..
唉,生活糜烂的人..

祝福你~

2010-03-17T22:26:00.003+08:00

心中怀着满满的祝福写这帖…
我不晓得什么唯美的词汇，什么深奥的字眼…
我没有那些很绚烂的文采，没有丰富的表达能力…
但是这帖里的字里行间，一字一句，都怀着真诚…
如果你看到的话，先向你问个好…
如果没看到的话，也祝愿你安好…
明天要离开了是吧？
抱歉，刚才本来想绕过去找你的…
但是想想你应该在忙着收拾东西吧，所以就打消了那个念头…
没关系啦，以后肯定还有机会再见的！
这几天看见你博客里头所写的忧虑，弄得我也担心起来了…
不过回头想想，这对你来说算什么？
中学时期谈得来的女性好友不多，你是其中一个…
你的强悍我也见识过了，可不是盖的哦…
所以被人欺负是不太可能的… 呵呵，别欺负人就好…
况且你也很容易和别人打成一片，所以没什么好担心的啦…
但是毕竟你孤身到另一个完全陌生的国度…
风俗习惯，语言文化，生活作息等，都不一样了…
你得好好照顾自己的健康和安全哦…
上帝会代替我们所有的人看着你的…
所以，发生什么事情，告诉他就可以了… 知道吗？
很羡慕你，因为在你身上我看到了我梦寐以求的东西…
是能够做自己要的东西… 是自由… 是这样吗？
这一去就五年了是吧？
也好，出去闯一闯，你学到的肯定比任何人来的多…

好吧，就这样…
嘉恩，祝福你咯~

反省·第一章——原谅与包容

2010-03-14T19:31:00.005+08:00

原谅是三小，我到现在还不知道。

最近我发觉我妹真的长大了。她懂得我不知道的东西，能够做到我所不能做到的。我真的不明白，为什么她能够对一个时常伤害她的人有说有笑，好像没事发生那样。我继续观察了好一阵子，但是我怎么都想不通。有一天我问她：“她那副德性，你怎么还能忍受？”她想了想，回答道：“如不是这样，还能怎样？说到底，她还是我们的妈妈。”然后掉头就走出房间。

我心想，难道她这样不过分吗？每天这样羞辱，难道都没感觉的？说实在的，我很难真正讨厌一个人，但能够让我产生厌恶，憎恨的人，世界上就只有她。（停顿了几分钟，真的不知该如何形容那般恨之入骨的感觉，算了。）

从小，谁对我做过什么东西，我都记得清清楚楚。我不会生气，也不会报复。但是它就像一根刺永远扎着，一看见当事人就会想起这事。我很想忘记，但就是没办法。可能这就是我没办法交到知心朋友的原因吧，一旦某个人做了什么事，我会永远记得。就算是以后关系变好了，我也会保持一定的距离，以免同样的事再次发生。（中学的辅导老师说我的自我保护心态过强，这不见得是一件好事。）

我不喜欢受伤，更不会让自己受伤。但事实上，要长大，就得学会忍痛，然后学会疗伤。很多宝贵的东西，珍贵的教训，也是受伤后换回来的。但是我就是没办法过得了自己那关。当人家试着要靠近我的时候，我就会本能地画一条界线，谁都不能跨过。不只是伤害过我的人，就算没有伤害过我的，而且是个很值得交的朋友，我也会跟他保持一定的距离。依稀记得，也因为这样，我错过了好几段珍贵的友谊，甚至爱情。

我不明白为什么，有些人就能够那么坦诚地面对人。难道他们都不怕在别人面前自揭疮疤，让别人看见自己的弱点而趁虚而入？在别人面前我不会做假，但我更加不会被人看见真面目。其实我很多缺点，多得数不完。但是我都尽量不让别人捉到，以免又中招。

说说自己吧，就算是我曾经对别人造成的伤害，我也很难原谅我自己。尤其记得中四所发生的那件事，到现在我还耿耿于怀。我时常问自己，如果我没有当众说出那样的话，我现在跟他应该是很好的朋友吧？虽然最后他说了无所谓，但是我还是很自责，甚至很后悔。因为我会认为，那件事会在他的心中留下一根刺。当一见到我时，就会想起来了。应该是这样吧？

我非常明白，人非圣贤孰能无过的道理。但我不明白，人们真的能够忘记别人对他们所造成的伤害？我不会忘记，但我不会报复，只是永远记在心里。这是不能原谅别人的心态吗？如果不是，那么原谅又是什么？我会继续努力地学习如何原谅，如何包容。我要长大，做个大人。

后记：这是第一篇的反省篇，时常反省有助于提升自己。此外，并祝今晚拉曼大学的辩论队伍能够夺冠。

Halia Grill burp..

2010-03-08T00:24:00.013+08:00

A great dinner with Uni friends yesterday at Halia Grill. It's a nice place with great food.. xD.. Don't really know how to describe them in detail, because that's the 1st time I get to know most of the food. (LOL.. I never been to those high class place before mah..) N that was the 1st time I ate beef n lamb(shh..) Don't let my mum know or else I will be murdered.

The food that attracted me the most on that day --> Chocolate Fruit Dip!!
Seriously, very nice lar... ><"'

We took some photos before leave the restaurant:

I only upload two photos for now. Others will be uploaded next time.. =)

After that, we went Feeling Cafe because it's only about 10.30pm (if not mistaken). The night's still young and we had fun till 12am. Syok! xD..

For further details of the restaurant, please CLICK HERE.

Another trivial stuff

2010-03-04T20:26:00.006+08:00

TADA~~!!!

Muahaha.. Shocked? Don't worry, this is not a ghost. Thanks to Shiang for the mask, but my BIG head seems like a bit "out of bound". = ="' I'm wondering that, is there any bigger sized mask that suits big head like me?

A better day

2010-03-01T21:35:00.010+08:00

Woke up at 6.40am, prepared to attend a super BORING 8am lecture. Feelin kinda weird cuz normally the sky is still dark at 7.15am, but it's red today. That's awesome!

Met my NEW MAMA(Jia Seng) after the lecture. We were having a chat and suddenly a message arrived his handphone - a part time job available, 3 person needed, 1~8pm, RM80. Woohoo.. How lucky.. n I grabbed 1 of the vacancies. It's a duno what bla-bla ceremony held in Celcom Tower. Nothing special, nothing tough. Only some odds and ends to do. However, MAMA had to wear the stupid Choi San(wealthy god) costume. Quite suffer hor~~? xD.. Eh but seriously he looked quite good after putting on that thingy.

Today's earnings:

RM80 cash
+
McD coupon x5
+
a so goddamn beautiful chinese painting from 1 of the LaoShi in the ceremony
+
a peaceful mind(due to the absence of her voice)
+
a new MAMA(LOL)
..This is the painting that I got from the LaoShi.. Nice leh~~

....

2010-02-28T16:03:00.004+08:00

现在的心情怎么形容…
不知道…
很辛苦…
里面在哭…
外面流不出泪来…

我也不知怎么形容…
心中的憎恨…
愤怒… 伤心…

我很怕有一天我倒下去…
崩溃…

突然没心情写了…
一个词做总结,心碎…

小小感触

2010-02-25T19:03:00.008+08:00

刚看完2小时20多分钟的“艋舺”…
不错看，挺有fu… 在此写下一些小小感言…

若我是蚊子，能够重新选择的话
我依然会拉着你伸出的手
一起跨过那道墙…
不会后悔…
因为找到了真正的友谊…

即使我们上一代的恩怨
让你得作出一些选择…
伤害我们，还有其他的人…
不要后悔…
我们仍有真正的友谊…

你横起心来了…
子弹发出，打在我身上…
但我看见你的手在颤抖
泪在流…
相信你的心也一样痛…

我勉强张开双手…
你抱着了，但我捅你一刀…
当时你选择相信…
因为这是真正的友谊…

很可惜，我不是蚊子…
我找不到真正的友谊…
曾经掉进好几个陷阱…
好几个圈套…
也曾经伤害了人…
很懊悔，但是太迟了…

表面的嬉笑应酬有时很累…
而我的演技也不好…
相信人家也看得出
这是虚情假意，逢场作戏…
但你以为我很开心吗？不！

我何尝不想坦诚以对…
何尝不想撕下那可恨的面具…
但现实让我看见了…
让我望而却步…

有时心里的垃圾桶满了…
垃圾不小心溢出来…
我也只能自己掉泪…
把溢出来的垃圾吞回去…
不然就以电脑麻醉自己…
暂时逃到另一个世界…

但是梦醒了，擦擦眼睛…
我又回到了现实…
没有我梦想拥有的家庭…
没有我期望达到的成就…
更没有一个能够偶尔走进我的世界…
听听我的牢骚，借个肩膀靠靠的人…
坐在孤独的角落，我什么都没有……

最近处于“一点点发情期”状态

2010-02-19T00:08:00.004+08:00

As titled… 很痛苦下… 很难控制下… 怎办… xD
刚才看到一个以前就觉得很有感觉的人… 的profile…
觉得心痒痒的… 很难忍…
没关系，学杨果，做操很有用下…

一二三四清心寡欲
二二三四无欲则刚
三二三四丢脸事小
四二三四赔钱事大

虎年的第一个噩耗

2010-02-17T22:36:00.004+08:00

真没想到，这么快，这么突然。。
她讲课时丰富的表情，多变的音调，比手划脚的样子。。
记忆还很清晰地留着，人却这么快走了。。
虽然我和她的交流不多，但无可否认的，她是一个很好的讲师。。
遗憾。。
遗憾这世上少了个好人。。
遗憾UTAR少了个好讲师。。
遗憾刚出生的小生命少了个妈妈。。

Ms. QuahCI，永在我们的怀念中。。
点击此连接以阅读更多：http://www.sinchew.com.my/node/149899?tid=1

New header

2010-02-16T22:59:00.004+08:00

Suddenly feel like changing the header.. due to "TOO SIEN" = ="'
Spent 3hrs on doing it.. Um, quite ok i think..
Bid farewell to my previous header =X..[P/S: I do not own the pics!! Just editing them to become my header =P]

Cannot tahan ady

2010-02-16T13:23:00.005+08:00

Today is the [3rd day of CNY aka. 5th day of holiday] but I already feel like staying in HELL for thousands of years. I cannot stand them anymore.. those CB bitches larhh!!! Faster school reopen leiii!!! I'm so tired of quarreling ady... even CNY also can't give me a break mehh??! Mahai chibai seisohai.. Really hate those bitches!!! I guess I will kisiao before this 1 week holiday ends. Zzz!!

[LOL.. lets go to Mahai camp site]

Reunion dinner of CNYeve2010

2010-02-14T00:13:00.006+08:00

Simple but tasty. A peaceful 15mins reunion dinner, without any voices and noises. No one got angry, no one laughed, no one talked. Quietly enjoyed the food, quietly cleaned the table after eating, quietly washed the dishes. The atmosphere is as usual, the difference is just everyone was trying to avoid any quarrel during the dinner and I took 5mins longer than usual to finish the dinner. That's my reunion dinner for this CNY eve.

Update update le woi...

2010-02-13T00:08:00.010+08:00

It has been a while since the last time I was here. Um, quite a lot of changes had been done to myself within this period. This would be quite a long post so you have to be patient enough to read.

I'm currently in the "half-quit-W3K" mode, thanks to those sohai + tidak bertamadun Singaporean. W3K EN and CN server merged on the 9th of Feb. Once the server merged then they keep on bullying players from CN just because they don't understand English WTF??!! Seriously I don't think their English level is as good as what they thought LORHHH, OK?? They have even more grammatical mistakes than me when chatting (or quarelling) LOL.. As u all know my English isn't that good anyway. Tipu makan saja ~ Haiz.. but kesian those friends that I knew from the game lo.. ><"' "conclusion for the paragraph: W3K SUXXXXX LAARHHHH !!!!"

Hohoho... the next thing is, I changed my pet phrase from 踩啦踩啦!! to 发烧!! LOL.. ah Shin kokor.. got copyright de k? xD ~~ Later I sue you then you know. Pay me RM10B LOL..

I'm totally broke this month!! I never spend so much money within few days, like what I did lately. XIN-TONG ar~ Lets do some calculation:

+++
FES MUSIC CLUB MEMBERSHIP FEE - RM10.00
+
CNY HAIR CUT - RM17.00
(I'm ugly so no photos LOL)
=
RM 594.00
[Note: expenses below RM10.00 are excluded.]

Damn lo, spent so much money. Nearly RM600 WTF.. Few days ago I joined Music Club. The reason is, music is part of my interest and dream as I wanted to learn since I was small, and now I'm going to make it become true. I give myself a period of 1 year to learn guitar. I must learn well within this period!! Not forget to thank my very very good friend Chee How for helping me to get my first guitar.

I bought my 1st WAX today. I also don't know why but my strong feeling forced me to buy it. Haha~ an excuse. Never use b4 + not really sure how to use, hopefully won't end up ruinning my hair LOL.

Tomorrow is CNY eve, an important day for Chinese, and will be having reunion dinner at night. (I guess) that might also be my 1st reunion dinner with only 3 people eating together, 1st CNY without going anywhere, 1st peaceful and lonely CNY with my computer. Time flies, years passed, everything has changed.. Haix.. Speechless. (Don't wish to recall back those unwanted memories)

Wish whoever that is reading this post, a happy and prosperous CNY.. Gotta continue the stupid Moral assignment, that's all for now.

I'm weird

2010-01-31T12:56:00.003+08:00

Not much updates at my blog recently, as I spend most of the time in W3K. Life is still the same, nothing special happened.
Went to Carrefour just now.. The word "crowded" is not enough to describe the people there, cuz TOO MANY PPL LIAUU.... Feeling very pek cek when squeezing with the crowds. Seriously I don't like these kinda places.. so many people n noises..
CNY is around the corner.. n I wonder why those people like "celebration" so much? Is CNY really that important? n should we do so many silly things in order to "celebrate" the CNY? @@ ... Maybe I'm the weird 1, cuz seriously I don't like celebration.. Not only CNY but other festivals too. I just can't understand what is in their mind and how do they feel when celebrating stuffs like that.. = ="'

Arts

2010-01-03T19:02:00.006+08:00

Yesterday went to the kindergarten where my mum works at, helped her to decorate her classroom LAST MINUTE. = ="' .. Her idiot principal lurr... suddenly wanna do so many changes. Scared my mum till death. (padan muka dia, awal-awal dowan ask). After that, her colleague asked me to help her out at the other branch zz.. A big empty wall, have to finish 1 shot zz.. Hard aa.

After 3+hrs, this is what I did. I don't even have time to plan n therefore, I made it quite ugly XD.. All cut n paste, 3D. Btw my mums sunflowers (decorating material, also I do de) are much more nicer than that. Haiz~ the sad thing is, NO PAY. Only got free dinner, supper n breakfast for the next morning. Enuff le lurr~ can save $$ also. But frankly speaking, I prefer RM lol. She also asked me whether wanna become art teacher at her place anot but I rejected her. HaHa.. 1 more thing, NO MORE NEXT TIME except got PAY. XD~

Kaikai at WWM

2010-01-02T00:11:00.005+08:00

Went Wangsa Walk Mall. Hmm~ not bad but not fully operated yet. A lot shops not yet open. The FOS there quite big. Karaoke, bowling etc open ler, but not cinema =_=.. Bought a book for fun at Popular book store. It costs Rm28.50 and I'm broke again. XD~
After that, had dinner at the nearby KFC. Ate 4 pcs spicy fried chicken + rice + etc etc side dishes. Haiz.. disappointed.. getting "wider" n "wider". T_T

New year

2010-01-01T00:10:00.003+08:00

It's 2010...
Happy new year.. n hopefully all my wishes will come true..
as well as wishes of all my friends..

It's 2010...
I need some changes.. some improvement..
Not the noobie me in 2009 anymore..

Whhhhat a christmas..

2009-12-27T14:50:00.006+08:00

Went to a gathering at Pn. Koh's place. Met 3 juniors and 1 of them was cute. LOL.. Can't remember much about what had happened there but I remembered that I ate a lot. Not only that, I also TAPAU-ed quite a lot after the gathering.. *paiseh~*

During the journey of going back home, I had a long chat with Pn. Koh and I found that most of the good teachers left ChongHwa, which is a sad thing. 95% of the teachers that I could list out their name, all gone!(including Pn.Lau.. zOmg?!) Besides, Malays are getting more and next year will be only 3 teachers teaching Chinese in the afternoon session. I'm not racist or what but, Malay teachers gave me a very bad impression since most of them that I met are super duper lousy. I wonder what will happen next year and how would they undergo the hard time? Actually *in my opinion* ChongHwa had becoming worse after our previous principal (Mr.CFS) retired. Not to deny, Pn. Lau was a very good principal too but she could hardly control ChongHwa, I guess? Haiz.. Hopefully the new principal would do something to save ChongHwa lurrrr ~~~~

I'm learning Japanese language these few days to fill up my EMPTY holiday. Damnshit lurr.. it's already 4 days but i still can't remember all the Hiragana well. Anyway, it's a *self-learning* Muahahaha.. Now I could speak some simple phrases, greetings, questions and etc.. but that's not enough! *Hur hur.. im greedy..* Actually I have a very big interest in learning Japanese language, just that I don't have a chance to do so. *sigh*
I'm looking forward on my 3rd year of degree cuz I will be having Japanese language as 1 of my subject! And then, I will try to find opportunities to go to Japan. Maybe to further my studies [OR] work [OR] travel [OR] whatever ... I really wish to go there arrrgh.. ><"'

热脸贴冷屁股

2009-12-22T19:49:00.006+08:00

真的很不好受，把自己弄得整个笨蛋似的。想起来觉得自己很可悲。

UTAR真的有够烂！我登记了的时间又爽爽跟我换掉。他妈的草枝摆。这就是我明年的懒趴时间表：
死UTAR，真的很后悔读这间。

有点down，有点愤怒

2009-12-20T15:09:00.004+08:00

这几天心情不是很好。除了对朋友的愧疚，对考试的惶恐、惧怕，对自己的不满、自责，还有对某人的愤怒、无奈、失望。饿了自己两天，感觉很好。。。这样就没力气再想那么多。本想约个朋友去吃吃些东西，因为明天考试，不过还是算了。加油，继续饿下去。。。

你妈的夭寿狗杂种，是你威胁我不要吃的，现在不要假假拿盘狗粮出来放着几分钟又收回去。好假，看了连上个礼拜的食物都想吐出来。你那些狗杂种吃的我可受不起，吃了都会短命好几年。不然像上次酱，自己脸皮厚厚逼我吃，吃了还要酸我讲没骨气？不错，我倒想试试看我这次可以饿几天，反正又不是第一次。

你除了会弄些狗粮塞人家的嘴巴，还会什么？看看你自己，真失败，真悲哀。。不错，所以现在我知道了你不让我自己弄吃的原因。是想我吃你那些狗粮吧？放心，吃不久的了。你等着瞧！

衰到。。。。

2009-12-15T22:15:00.003+08:00

今天，一个鸟人帮我剪了个鸟头。真的鸟到我都不敢见人了！我只是跟他说，最近天气热，剪短些。怎知脱下眼镜，带上去的时候就这样了。。。啊~~~~

然后今天是我阿姨的生日，刚去了她的生日会。。呵呵，吃得很饱。。

等死

2009-12-13T12:43:00.001+08:00

明天的考试完蛋咯！！！
伤心。。。T___T

无法忘记

2009-12-11T16:20:00.004+08:00

真的无法忘记那四天。
漫画般浪漫的四天，电影般激情的四天。
从没想过这种事情会发生在我身上。
可惜的是，结局一点都不精彩。

无法忘记，14/5/08。。。

惜缘

2009-12-09T13:22:00.007+08:00

刚才泡完韩片"天才宝贝"发觉，原来爸爸也可以很爱孩子的…电影看到最后，说真的我都快哭出来了。

很感动，希望全天下大爸爸都要像他那样疼爱自己的孩子。以后的我肯定不结婚，因为婚姻是个很恐怖的东西。但是我应该会收养一个，毕竟我很喜欢小孩子。小时候看着他可爱的样子，什么烦恼都忘了。我也不会担心迟到睡不醒，因为他会很准时，一大早就会哭了。长大了些，陪他到游乐场玩耍，多么快乐。之后陪他做功课，煮东西给他吃，伤心时陪他聊聊天。呵，想得太远了。

----- 换个话题 -----
约11.30电影看到一半，突然接到爸爸打来的电话。很巧对吗？真的就这么巧。恰巧家里没人，所以我才能够跟他讲电话。坦白说很久没听见他的声音，真的都不认得了。聊了一会儿，可以感觉到他很想我们。我留了个电话给他，也告诉他我对他不满的地方。老实说，我也知道这不完全是他的错，但是事情演变至此那又能怎样？自上次法庭外那件事以后，现在总算释怀了一些。

我真的很希望像其他人一样，有一个美满的家庭。奈何命运不让我拥有，我又能怎样？我的家庭没办法挽回了，这是事实。父亲不在身边很痛，母亲在身边更痛。只因她是唯一一个让我感到愤怒，恐惧，害怕的女人。真的…我也不知该写什么了，再写我怕我会哭。现在的我应该很容易掉泪，因为现在我一个人在家，没人，正好可以暂时放下面具休息。毕竟我也是一个人，心灵总会有疲倦的时候。不过我不会在任何人面前卸下面具，尤其是她。因为我不能让她看扁，我要证明给她看，我是打不死的蟑螂。

最后祝愿所有人，一定要好好珍惜身边最亲最爱的人，不可以利用他们，欺骗他们，出卖他们，要好好爱他们。因为今世走完了，以后可能永远也碰不见他们了。[对不起我只能放这张图画，因为我连一张全家福也没有。呵，很失败，对吧？]

2.30..还是很闷

2009-12-09T02:31:00.008+08:00

刚刚泡完韩片"七音符"，很好看！
故事超级感人，浪漫到掉渣，甜死人不偿命！
那种两颗心紧紧相系，却没办法爱到对方的感觉…啊~~~！
我专门泡爱情片的，哈哈。因为自己没有嘛，空虚-ing~

还有，重点，里头的主角配角个个皆帅哥美女。
所以，大力推荐给大家！

不止，看了电影，觉得男女主角超像俊贤和Florrie！
不信你们自己去看。^^
男的相似度应该有85%，而女的应该有75%。
男的真的太像俊贤了，尤其是笑的时候。
还有，两个唱歌都很好听咯。其他就不清楚了，毕竟没有很熟。
而电影女主角眼睛比较恐怖，但是男人婆的性格一模一样！
不过，还是Florrie比较美啦~
哈哈~ Florrie要是看到了这个，不要杀我。

突然觉得俊贤和Florrie很匹配horr。
好像在看他们两个拍电影那样。
希望他们两个可以幸福咯，就像电影里头那么相爱。哈哈~
还有电影里面那个那个白痴弟弟，真得很欠扁。哈哈~

Ish，真的很像啦。。。><
迟一点得空再告诉他们咯。
空浪漫了一轮，继续发霉去咯~~

点击图片观看全图:
[真得很像对吗？后面那个也很酷噢]

正文

2009-12-07T22:43:00.006+08:00

上一篇是写爽的，骂一骂空气也爽。
现在才是正题。

这几天都泡在韩国电影里。
"无赖老师"，"老处女日记"，"大力士麦当那"，"救世主"等等。
不错看~ 可以打发时间。

我发现韩国人演戏，表情特别夸张，说话也特别大声。
还有，演员们无论男女，样貌都很不错哦！
不过，听说韩国人最普遍整容。所以，对他们也不抱有太大的兴趣。
继续泡下一部咯-"姐姐走了"。希望是好看的。

(1小时52分钟后): 这电影不错^^

Alien language

2009-12-07T22:29:00.004+08:00

Kn sy dh ckp, XYAH!!
Knpe x paham2?!
Sy ni xblh prcaya ke?!
Klo x prcaya jgn tnye tau!
Dh ckp 1kali, nk sy ulang gi!!
Ko smua ni PEKAK ke?
Ke xpaham BI??

SJ JE NK KECOH~~ HEHE
Jgn pkir byk2 ya...

失眠

2009-12-07T03:32:00.003+08:00

已经3.35am了…
一直打瞌睡，可是就是睡不着…
一点也不想动书本…
对着电脑也不知道可以做什么…
只能望着荧幕发呆…
我想应该是压力吧…
这次的考试应该是完蛋的了…

这个夜晚真的很长…
三不五时望去荧幕的右下角…
怎么号码好像不会跳的…

真的很寂寞…

救救我

2009-12-04T22:46:00.004+08:00

谁能从魔女的手中把我救出来………
我忍得很痛苦啊………

真的受够了！！

Trivial stuff

2009-12-02T20:52:00.005+08:00

Just some trivial stuff to share..
Regarding to W3K..
Went for bossing just now to hunt for some stuff..
Suddenly 2 bosses come together..
And [WE = me + 2 bosses] had a great fight.. XD
1st time killing two boss in 1 shot.. SYOK!

1. During killing

2. Double kill!

p/s: I still got 2 lab report not yet finish!! ZzZzz..

Pain ~~

2009-11-29T13:01:00.003+08:00

Zzz.. Leg still very pain.. Just can sit like OKU..

Btw, I've becoming more n more addicted to W3K.. OMG.. That's a very nice game.. but I can't play more due to too many lapsaps to do.. = ="'

And.. I NEED MONEY AAR... any1 got lobang earning $$ please inform.. XD

Joggin @ TTwangsa

2009-11-27T17:26:00.015+08:00

Went Titiwangsa for a jog today. 3 people joining include me: SEANG(me), SIANG(m) and SHIANG(f). What a coincidence, all of us having similar name. XD ~

Hmm.. actually not really jogging, as we talk more than run. Anyway, we had a great time enjoying fresh air. (Although it was very HOT)

Only few photos uploaded. Others not for public hahaha~

After that, we had our brunch at OldTown cafe.. ^_^ We wanted to order a breakfast set but the waitress told us that no breakfast set during public holiday?! Wtf is that.. Lastly I ate JawaMee. Haiz~ So expensive laaa!

不知道

2009-11-25T23:07:00.004+08:00

我真的不知道……
我到底该怎么做？
我这样做对吗？
这次真的找到了，
还是又一个海市蜃楼？

好不容易从那沼泽爬了出来
也曾告诉自己不能再陷下去
但是，不知不觉又开始下陷了

曾经的我陷得多么深
多么痛苦多么受伤
但是我竟然又重蹈覆辙了
真该死……

其实这样我也不想的
但是，我就是这样
这就是我，很犯贱吧
我真的不想再受伤了
但是我却控制不了自己
很白痴对吧？

Zzz...

2009-11-24T23:52:00.003+08:00

FUCKING PROGRAMMING!!
FUCKING ASSIGNMENT!!
I SURE FAIL PROGRAMMING THIS SEM!!
WASTE MY WHOLE DAY AND GET NOTHING!!
MCB (*&^%$#*&^%$#$%^&^%$ !!!!

GIVE UP LIAO !!
SIEN ~~~~~~ o0o

Exam DIE

2009-11-20T14:55:00.005+08:00

Hohoho... today's exam .. DIE!!!

After that, we (me,coleShin,weiWei,aBun) had our lunch at TBR. I ordered a cup of SeaCoconut aka 海底椰 and PanMee. What I wanna emphasize is the SeaCoconut. It only costs RM1.20 and it is REFILLABLE! Me and LeeWei got 2nd cup for free ^^ Very worth horr...

But that's only for today, due to: 1)less customer 2)raining soon 3)going to close stall ..

Not long after that, rain started to pour down.. and they running like **** Haha.. I couldn't run because I was still holding my SeaCoconut..
= ="'

[TADA! This is the 1.. Btw that's aBun's hand.]

Hah.. Just some trivial stuff.. Going to have a nice and long sleep after suffering for 2 hours. ~_~

Bored till death

2009-11-20T01:17:00.010+08:00

Later will be my Power System test + quiz, which means it's time for me to die. I roughly flipped thru the lecture notes just now and I found that I don't even know a single shit about it! Haiz..
Then i planned to read them in detail. However, my revision ended up with these:

and fall asleep..

Argh ~~ So damn bored !!!!

他妈的,真的是差一点!

2009-11-19T12:49:00.003+08:00

今天的考试顺利过关,希望一切顺顺利利..

放学后去了银行,回家途中突然听见一声"啪!"吓了我一跳..
一眼望去,原来是坨乌鸦屎! 就在我脚旁边,差一点就中头奖了!
真它妈的(*&^%$#(*&^%$(*&^%$#$%^&* !!!!

这时不禁想起"宫心计"里的其中一个名句:
[ 句句铿锵有力，字字掷地有声 ]
改为: 拉屎铿锵有力，坨坨掷地有声 !

哎,真衰 ~~

小小分享

2009-11-19T01:48:00.004+08:00

TA DA!!!!
我小时候的其中一个宝贝：

[前面那本才是主角，后面的只是绿叶罢了。]

我是个爱收集回忆的人。

刚才突然想起，就拿出来看一看。好快呀，这两本贴纸书应该有10年了。记得我小时候，几乎每天会拿出来翻一遍。睡觉前，难过时，都会拿来看看。如今虽然已经泛黄，变得旧了，但是里头蕴藏的记忆，是永远也不会磨灭的。

哈~ 一时兴起，拍了张照片就po上来了。

记得小时候，几乎每个周末早晨都会和家人到市集去逛逛。我一直想买一本贴纸书，但是看了好几次，都没合眼缘的。而有一次，当我第一眼看见它，就喜欢上了，一直到现在。

它应该会陪着我直到永远吧..

again, DIE

2009-11-18T21:22:00.003+08:00

Exam mode on again..
It's time for me to die again..

* s i g h ~ *

红色

2009-11-18T01:42:00.008+08:00

鲜艳的红色
往往引人注目
而我却不屑一顾
只因华而不实没内涵
抢尽风头让我很不舒服

当红色遇上了玫瑰
更是为之嚣张
什么冶艳气质
什么浪漫象征
什么热情澎湃
让人为之倾倒
殊不知
一个不小心就被刺伤了
而红色遇上血液
如今带给人的
是伤害是痛楚
是先甜后苦的无奈

说实在的
我真的很讨厌红色
越是鲜艳越觉恶心
越是光鲜亮丽的外表
越是突显邪恶的内在

--------++-----------

OS：今晚无聊过了头，突然
想起某个让我倍觉厌恶的垃
圾，所以借题发挥。不要怀
疑，我正是在映射着某人。
也请闲杂人等切勿对号入座
。谢谢。

Cold ~.~

2009-11-16T20:53:00.004+08:00

COLD . COLD . COLD . COLD . COLD . COLD . COLD

.....

.....

Today - cold
My brain - frozen
My eye - hardly open (sleepy)
My nose - *haachoo!*
My mouth - "so cold arr~~"
Sleepy ~_~

.....

.....

P/S: wut'm i tokin' aboutt? shyt ..

COLD . COLD . COLD . COLD . COLD . COLD . COLD

Untitled

2009-11-15T22:28:00.003+08:00

I accidentally saw a picture and I like it a lot..

At 1st, I planned to use that picture as my title

but I didn't choose it at last,

as I found another picture which is more suitable

to be my title.

This is the picture _

过得很好

2009-11-12T21:05:00.001+08:00

生活充实没烦恼 ~ ^^

Gogo fighting!!

2009-11-08T22:11:00.003+08:00

2mrw exam ehhs... DIE
nervous arhs...
C++ for me is a new thing...
unlike before de C liao..
so many new things also..

ok ba.. continue jyjy liao..
study hard, sleep hard, play hard n pray hard..
muahahaha... XD

该反省了？

2009-11-04T22:39:00.005+08:00

回头望一望，我失去了很多东西。
把自己藏在泥土里逃避现实已经很久，
是时候开始想一想自己要的是什么。

3 more years

2009-10-24T21:05:00.003+08:00

It's ok,
Just bear with it..
for another 3 years..
And I'm free.
Free from the haunted house,
from being a slay of the Witch.

It's ok,
Just bear with it..
for another 3 years..
And I'm rich.
Rich of freedom..
Rich of happiness..
Rich of peace..

It's ok,
Just bear with it..
for another 3 years..
And I'm a man.
Remove the mask that covered me
for years,
and be myself.
Untie the string on my wrist
and get whatever I wish to,
do whatever I want to.

It's ok,
Just bear with it..
for another 3 years.

It has been a long time

2009-10-22T17:25:00.007+08:00

It has been a long time since the last time I was here. Not in the mood of blogging..

Many things had happened, and I have grown up quite a lot..

==> 1stly, I bought a pair of slippers.. I like it a lot ^^

==> 2ndly, I went to court and saw someone that I really do not wish to see..

Time flies..
2 years..

He has more white hair now, and look fatter. Guess he's having a better life now, with his new girlfriend?

When I saw him in front of the court, he tried to call me but I did not give any response. I saw that his tears were almost to burst out at the moment, and it shattered my heart too. Frankly speaking, I do not hate him but don't know why, I just don't wish to see him. I know he wasn't the 1 who cause everything to happen but I just couldn't accept his irresponsibility.

I even thought of giving my new contact num to him but I didn't do so, at last. Yesterday he called my house num, and my sis answered the phone. She scolded him and hung up. Maybe I shall explain everything to my sis somedays later, as she's still blur about what had happened. In fact, the main cause of this issue is the 1 who actually I hate the most, yet I couldn't do anything to her.

It was the first time I entered the court, and I took some pics of it (illegally I guess, coz no one's there and I didn't ask for any permission =X)

==> 3rdly, I went back to ACE to spend my sem-break and that was the first time I ate Nepal food. It was totally a new taste for me. Simple but delicious, this is the characteristic of their food. *Yummy*

But I didn't get to take a photo of the food. ><"'

唉~

2009-09-20T03:50:00.001+08:00

那只无情的手
将我推入无底洞
无法再翻生

为什么他要这样做。。。。。

I'm dead

2009-09-16T13:20:00.002+08:00

The exam was sooooo damn hard !
Hope that I could pass the exam ~~
I don't wanna repeat for another sem! T___T

...

2009-09-11T00:46:00.002+08:00

睡了一整天，还是很想睡觉……
根本没精神读书……
算了，反正都等死……

被遗忘的人

2009-09-10T01:24:00.002+08:00

为什么……
他们都不告诉我……
借口，我不知道你不知道……
我被遗弃了……
怎么办……

平时虽然我没帮上多大的忙……
可是为什么要这样对我……

我到底是得罪了你们什么……

一个人多好

2009-09-06T16:50:00.004+08:00

好平静的日子，吃饱玩，玩饱睡，睡饱吃……

思绪不再装进任何人……
自己一个人多好……
没有以往的痛苦……